Dead.

12490 @ 2008-09-24T16:07:00

2008-09-24T06:12:27Z

Am currently in SGS. :) good thing jordan's around. his all-powerful vaio laptop allows me to pass through this arduous journey without the risk of mortality from utter boredom.

Gosh, I know i'm supposed to concentrate. instead, i went on bread top website and looked at lots. and lots. and lots. and lots. of nice, sumptuous, juicy, flavourful breads. (the coconu bread and the almond twist seemed particularly good).

Then, I proceeded to further satisfy my hunger by going on google image and typing in "mochi".

http://gfgourmet.files.wordpress.com/2007/06/mochi.jpg

The link above provides boredom-catalysed orgasm.

egads, i'm hungry. so so so hungry.

even brains sound good to eat right now. NO NO! MUST NOT! must resist!

man, i want to eat T_T.

12490 @ 2008-09-16T16:53:00

2008-09-16T07:15:35Z

Today, Jim clothed me, and fed me, and wiped my behind, and washed my sex toy.

He is truly my slave.

12490 @ 2008-08-31T14:59:00

2008-08-31T05:06:15Z

omfgggg. i want to go shopping. i really really really want to go shopping. fuuuck. two things stopping me:
1. poverty, per usual
2. the fucking med exam.

hmph. well, i DID go shopping yesterday. XD.
Bought a new Kenji white top. It's plain but it's Kenji! oh and it's 20 dollars. Yes, the price definitely helped.
And i bought a new white polka dot scarf. XD it's expensive for a scarf though. 28 DOLLARS! OMG! TWENTY DOLLARS. FOR A SCARF?!?!!!??!?!!? yeah, i decided to splurge. my god, my cheapness has increased exponentially. should i be proud or ashamed?

Right now, i'm so obsessed with MK olsen. why is she so hot? why is she so skinny? why is she so effortlessly cool? why is so fun to look at? OH! she's my new leso crush!

yeah, anyway! yes. i'm going to save up money. going to go on massive shopping spree! yes, i shall! :)

T_T but i have to pass this exam first. life sucks. why doesn't a high-paying job that requires no effort on my part exist?

hmph. life is very very unfair. wish i can be paid to go shopping.

12490 @ 2008-08-12T11:32:00

2008-08-12T01:47:31Z

I'm sitting in the computer lab during my 3 hour break. Beloved Ron has gone to participate in some swinger's party at 24 Arthur St with a few of her med SG buddies.
I am left here, feeling emotionally broken and physically impotent. I cannot satisfy her!

There's this creepy woman sitting to the woman next to me. Hopefully they can't read this.
CW (to the one beside her): *lowered, husky tone* I'm going to get foooood.....THEN i'm going to get *lustful expression* a riiiich cuuuup of coooooffeeeee.

Do people mind? Like, are food and coffee some codenames for doing unspeakable actions in public? Perhaps nicknames for their favourite gigolos?

oh man. CW left. But the remaining one (whom i thought was NOT creepy) just whispered to her computer: Oh yeah, that's riiiigghhht.

Seriously, what is with these people?!

argh.

i'm going to fail med because people like you exist in this world! i blame it on your creepiness.

12490 @ 2008-05-30T16:37:00

2008-05-30T06:46:43Z

Life sucks. I'm stuck at some prac where i virtually bathe with organs. How lame can this get? If i must bathe, can't i bathe in the real, physical world?
Bleeding hell. And this completely sucks. Why is it that on the particular day i actually attend class, they don't mark the bleeding role??!?!?!? WHAT"S THE POINT THEN!?!?!?\

Oh wellz. I'm glad today that i semi-finished my group project. All i need to do now is to do some referencing, cutting down and a powerpoint.
Oh, shit. now i've got to start on my individual assignment.
Oh, and i need to start studying. == The war is far from over.

Right now, I feel like shocking everyone. I want to stand on the table and begin belting out "WELCOME TO MY LIFE" by simple plan. Who knows? I might get scouted. OK, fine, not in Wallace Wurth. Pffft. Maybe they'll film me and put the video on youtube. I'll be an instant hit and become a pop star. Fuck med. Entertainment industry, here i come!

Bleh! Today, on the bus, Veronica confessed to being a dinosaur buff. From now on, she'll forever be labelled as dinobuff in my mind.

Veronica: *claps gleefully* DINOSAUR MUSEUM!
Cindy: .............*speechless*

If only there were attractive people in med. I can stare at them and think about how to stalk them during classes. *sigh* now i'm not even given the liberty of fantasising, as there is no subject to fantasise about. dammit. Who says smart people can't be attractive! But I suppose if you take the UNSW Med population as a sample size, the hypothesis "Medical students are unattractive" is proven true. There is not one single hot guy in med.

Nvm nvm! There's always yamapi. Ahhhh, visual stimualation. Wonder what colour hair he has now~~~ I promised myself at the beginning of this year to change hair colour as he does.

Alrighto, will go now and search up his latest current hair colour. :) can't wait to do my hair...in one month. (am in debt, you see)

12490 @ 2008-05-01T20:19:00

2008-05-01T10:31:00Z

I said I would clean my room last last last last week.
My horoscope told me today to clean my room.
Ron reminded me that I had to clean my room.
But, alas, my room remains suitably unclean.
Rather than unclean, I would say it's leaning more towards the spectrum that says "PIGSTY".
Anyway, will clean it. One day.

I haven't blogged in a long time. Well, dearest blog, I have gotten into Med. Yeah. Fun fun!
Today, I made out with a mannequin during Basic Resuscitation class. It was very useless -- the class, NOT the mannequin. I'm going to be a doctor.
From the above facts, I can very easily say -- the future of Australian healthcare system is well and truly doomed.

Over the last few weeks, I lost weight. But then NOW, i think i might be gaining again. I CAN"T STOP EATING! T_T OKOK! must go and buy those diet pills again and STOP eating so much.
*sigh*

Today, I bought 3 magazines. I spent 30 dollars on useless crap. From now on, when I go out, UNLESS NECESSARY, i will NOT eat. Cos that would waste money.
Must save up money to buy more clothes and shoes. :)

OKKKKK Lah!

anything else?

nothing.

ok.

why am i talking to my blog?

Oh and btw. med sucks!

12490 @ 2008-03-01T22:03:00

2008-03-01T11:18:38Z

I'm stuck in a drought. Not only climate-wise, but more financial-wise. I NEED CASH.

Wishlist:
1. Two pairs of new boots (broke the heels on my favourite pair in Japan T_T Guess I was too overexcited)
2. Hair Extensions!!!!!! So desperate for long hair. Medium long hair is IMPOSSIBLE to curl with a large radius curler. T_T
3. Tuxedo blazers from General Pants. Androgyny is in. Doesn't sound as bad as it sounds. Tuxedo blazers, that is more feminised. LOL.
4. Vest! Really want those vests with buttons etc. etc. I want to match it with my tartan shirt etc.
5. A tie!!! Again, Androgyny is very very in.
6. SECHUNA CLOTHES. School girl is also very very in. It'll ALWAYS be in for me anyway. I really want those long baggy cardigans!!! I just can't find the right ones in Australia.
7. MAC brushes. I'm sick and tired of having to apply make up with cheap brushes that get worse and worse after each wash. I recently bought these superbly sexy Bobbi Brown concealer brushes. Cannot wait to try it out to hide my dark circles.
8. Ambidexterous. I want to be able to paint my right hand nails as perfectly as I do my left. OK, admittedly, my left hand isn't at all that perfect but looks a lot better. My right hand looked like my cat spilt ink and puke all over my hand. bad bad.
9. A skinny body. Not possible, considering temptation exists around me daily. I stupidly bought a whole fucking sack of Savoy cakes. WHY? WHY?
OK OK. time for solid planning and some serious determination and serious d/ling of pretty clothes on skinny, pre-teen girls off www.sechuna.com.
My thinspiration!!!!

I realised the most important thing for dieting is really self control. well, no shit. I realised that ages ago. Diet pills don't work long-term. One needs to avoid eating too much. It is more painful than it sounds. I tend to eat EVEn when i'm not hungry.

Today, felt very disgusted with myself. My breakfast and dinner consisted of cakes, cakes and cakes. Well, at least I can comfort myself with the fact that I have finished the whole thing and cannot therefore access more.

So, I lost one kg last week. but then, I probably already gained it back. Reality is very grim and I'm scared to face the scales.

Dieting is bloody difficult. But I've got to survive through this. Yes. I must drop another 5 kg. Yosh. Shall be determined.

Maybe tomorrow.
Or the day after.

The Easter holidays sound good.

12490 @ 2008-02-26T12:00:00

2008-02-26T01:10:46Z

Just because Ron has been recently ranting about Japanese guys recently doesn't mean she was the FIRST one to start liking them. OK, neither was I. BUT I started blogging about them first. SO, i think my basic understanding of them should be more enhanced.

Now, Japanese guys. ALL Japanese guys, whether ugly or pretty. ALL have two things that work for them:

1. Fashion sense
2. BEAUTIFUL CHEEKBONES.

I noticed recently that guys from Johnny's Entertainment ALL have nice cheekbones.

Ikuta Toma has really high, sticking out cheekbones. Usually that would make any normal human being look like a strange, little skeleton. BUT NO. When he smiles, those bones stick out and it's sooooooooooo cute, making this little cute dimple on both side of his cheeks. His cheekbones belong to the cute category.

Yamashita Tomihisa. The perfect specimen who belongs in the dark, dangerous abyss, the thin line between cute and sexy. BUT HE DOES IT WELL. which is fucking sexy. Oh, what shall i say? He is my future husband after all. YamaP has nice cheekbones too. It's not too high, not too flat, in the perfect perfect position. In his profile, his face becomes a perfect, angular shape. His front view. Ah, well, divine. *orgasmic groan*

Anyway, enough about him. I've got to hurry up cos got to go to dentist soon.

NOW, Ryo Nikishido. You know, I never really noticed what all the fuss was about until I watched 1 Litre of Tears. SEXY, ALTERNATIVE, BROODING, ANGSTY. COME TOWARDS ME. He's the type of guys who bashes up people, but still look incredibly sexy doing it. HIS cheekbones are lofty, elegant. Oh, and it's the highlight of his face: the way it complements his slightly downward puppy eyes. rather than making him all cute etc. like yamapi and ikuta toma, it makes him uberly angsty. which is always sexy when the guy's hot.
Oh and did i mention he's utterly gay with yamaP?
They go to onsens together. Which is where you get naked.
And he waits for Yamapi when he oversleeps.

so incredibly adorable.

Now, this doesn't just apply to Johnny's boys who are Johnny's boys for the reason of them being good-looking. Went to Japan and so many beautifu cheekbones everywhere, including on the Beautiful Man Under The Sakura Tree (BMUST for short). AHHHHH, Japan: country of white-skinned girls with ugly teeth and androgynous boys with beautiful cheekbones.

12490 @ 2008-02-03T01:54:00

2008-02-02T14:57:15Z

i'm pissed off. the new powder i bought from Japan gave me this massive breakout. it is so massive that i have not experienced this ever before.

i'm waiting eagerly for my proactiv to QUICKLY deliver and save me from a life of acne scars. bloody powder. i'm so going back to my MAC powder.

Today, i ate:
1. 3 fried tofu, 1 banana
2. half place of rice and potato and meat (was ravenous)and blueberry yoghurt
and 1 fried tofu
3. some citrus

12490 @ 2008-01-28T17:10:00

2008-01-28T07:53:47Z

hello hello hello. i'm still alive and haven't lost any damned weight. I just ate chips and felt very guilty. Just came back from Taiwan and seriously, you just don't appreciate how great australia is until you've been to places like Taiwan.

It's pukeable over there. I actually saw a man pissing on a pole RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. and he wasn't even hot. if he was, i might accept it due to it being visual stimulation. the nerve -- to be ugly, old, tanned and pissing in public.

zat aside, me and miss lim are going to enjoy a nice candlelit lunch in sydney towers buffet at 1:00pm. I'll have to get up at 9:00am. God help me. Hopefully, i will manage to wake up on time. and hopefully, i will get my hands on some money by that time.

12490 @ 2007-12-05T15:34:00

2007-12-05T16:15:31Z

It is late and I have an Adelaide interview the day after tomorrow. and tomorrow i'm flying to adelaide. oh wait, it's actually today.
went to ron's blog. was amused by our incessant ramblings which consisted of gay sex, bitching about the HSC, and bitching about people. Half of the things i wrote i actually forgot. And I don't even remember who those asterisks were!

I too must admit I was doing something extremely sad yesterday. I was reading my livejournal as well and I realised that I sounded like a freaky, drug-fuelled pompous air-head 3/4 of the time.
I also started reading Ron's livejournal. Was amused. But then got insecure. To Ron: was that friend who wouldn't tell you her marks and stormed off me?
I clearly remember i stormed off once on u during a PMS high, but I don't think it was about the marks.
Now, I can't stop thinking about it. Great.

Frankly, interview training is a bitch. I didn't prepare at all. So when my mum saw my empty notebook ( which i hid from her previously ), she was shocked and rudely awakened.
IT"S NOT THE FUCKING HSC. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.
is what i wanted to say.
But, being the logical mature adult I am, I stormed off into my room and double-locked my door and listened to my iPod full-blast to block out her shrieky, annoying voice.

I feel that I have grown up. I am impressed with myself.

I shall now make a moving reflection about myself growing up over the past few years.

When i first came to ruse, I really hated it. It was very different from NSG. But then, I met a few friends and things started looking better.
Then, my emotional slope took a downslide again. Then it went up again. Then down. Then up. Then down. To put it briefly, it was more like a sine curve. But nevertheless, looking back, it was not that bad. It was actually quite funny. Everyone knows that my memory sucks and i lack serious general knowledge like bill gates being a havard drop-out not a highschool dropout, so i can't really provide any funny quotes/memories.
But one thing I do remember is me and Ron up in the library block. For some reason, I had my back to the railing and started jumping up and down. Trust me, it's not as bad as it sounds. Ron looked at me nervously and went "If you keep on doing that, you're going to fall and smash your head". Then I told her that I really am not athletic enough.

Another thing I remember is probably back in Yr 10. Me and Ron were sitting near the flagpoles having a D and M. Then Daniel Man walked past and said hello. I did a nobuta wave back at him and he walked off, quite peeved. Ron told me what my underwear colour was and laughed at me.

And then another thing is during Bio. I walked to my seat. Ron pulled my chair from under. I didn't notice and fell.

And then another thing.......wait. Why do i only remember me and her?
this is getting creepy. i shall remember some other things with other people.

Oh, and another memorable event must be when me, ron, vanora and rachel created a band called the "Lean Green Fighting Machine" or something along the lame lines. That was amusing. Then we started making a song to the music of sexy back. Then i spent a whole afternoon in maths matching the words to the music. It turned out weird and rather amusing.

Oh, and those numerous moments when we all dissed mandy because she's such a sad, sad, flea-laden person who apparently fails her interview as soon as the interviewer sees her face.

And those jokes about Vanora's hairy balls. And those mornings spent in the library crowding around Cynthia and Chamindu, doing the SHM target word of the day thing. And that day when Vy-Anh and Daniel Liang were discussing the formal arrangement (*cough*Yiwen*cough*). That was amusing.

And those times in chem when me and Isabel bitched about ******, not because we're very bitchy. Only because she's SO FUCKING ANNOYING.

And those days observing ***** and *****, hot, hopefully gay coupel of JRAHS. watching the ***** being all cool and disheveled with his tie askewed and ***** being superbly adorable and always running after *****. Good days.

Either way, things were quite amusing. And I think I will miss being in high school. Being in uni will be totally different and after-uni will also be very different.

For me, the future looks a little something like this:
I will be working in a law firm with my job description being simply pouring coffee and pulling out chairs for people and my salary being about $7 per hour. I will go home, still unfortunately living with my parents, to a house full of cats.

When I have the free time, I might go over to Vanessa's house and bum over there when i am bored. Watch her DVDs. Steal her money. Steal her clothes. Steal her TV. And basically just live off her. Alternatively, I might go to monica's house and steal her food and watch her make out with random people (unwillingly, i might add).

And occasionally, I will call Ron who is studying Med and doing her clinical thing at those teaching hospitals. I will always get the voicemail because she is either 1. busy sleeping 2. busy eating 3. busy working 4. busy studying. I foresee her next few years to be filled with sadness and bitterness at having studied Med and getting a too-high UAI and having to work night shifts in hospitals and basically working harder than everyone else who got lower UAI. Nevertheless, she does get the cash and eventually buy some big-arse house in double bay/whale beach or wateva. She will chill out occasionally during gay night where we search for gay, artistically rendered videos from different artistic, non-adult-book/video/other thing shop stores. Poman and Vanora will definitely be there.
Poman will probably be working as i dunno...a lawyer? And her night job is being a prostitute at Kings Cross. Only her night job isn't very successful.
Vanora is a manager in SonyBGM, scouting emo bands and making them big like what others did with Fall Out Boy. She will also be molesting little boys/girls with Ron and Poman as a side occupation (for Ron, might have to be dead, for Poman, only boys).
Then, occasionally, I will ring up Mandy who is a big-shot lawyer in Alex Ng's accounting company, handling the law consultation. She'll be like "HEY SEXY! WHAT? FUCK YOU! I"M BUSY" then go back to pashing difei/xin liang/alan etc., ignoring her good friend.
Then, when I'm starving for familial love, I will go to Isabel and Benson's house. they got married with 4 kids. They fight occasionally and Isabel sometimes threatens divorce but eventually it's all ok. I will force my way into their dinner table. I wonder if Isabel will finally have some fat on her bones then, considering that she does have four kids. Oh, and Benson's a stay-at-home dad. He does the housework. Isabel is a career-woman, doing some shifty business involving clothes and weight-loss medicine.
Chamindu is some lawyer in her big-arse international company and earns more than $3 000 000 per year, swindling money from underpaid Asian workers. I will occasionally, shuffle along her doorstep and look pleadingly at her for a little bit of cash.
Cynthia is a partner in some big corporation. No idea what she does as is too complex for me to understand. She too earns a lot and I will repeat the same procedure above to squeeze a few hundred from her.
Vy-Anh is some CEO of some big-shot pastry company and she makes food all day for a ridiculously high salary. I will also repeat same procedure above. But I will also beg for some food, in addition to cash.
Etc. Etc.

Either way, even if I am not successful, I have plenty of friends who will lend their helping hand when I am in need of food/money. I foresee a comfortable future for myself. :)

The End!

12490 @ 2007-11-15T03:07:00

2007-11-14T16:16:02Z

downloading asian music. jolin's soooooo cute in 桃花源 mv that i nearly turned lesbian.
Anyway, i figured that my post-hsc life is pretty sad. i'm still stuck at home. life sucks.
omg, that's like my catchphrase.
anyway, i'm thinking that perhaps if finish all my bloody interviews, i can finally be free.
but, before the hsc, i was thinking when i finish all my exxams, i can be free.
u c why i'm totally doubting my mum now? *that bitch*
Besides that, there is a traumatic event that happened to me today.
i stepped onto the scales after long whiles of deliberating and weighing out the pros and cons of knowing my own weight.
Pros:
Will know my weight
Cons:
Psychological damage

Cons was definitely winning but curiosity got the better of me. Perhaps i studied so hard that i lost weight!!!
fat chance.
i stepped on the scales and my eyes popped out. for the next few hourrs, i had this look on my face --> O.O
I can't really do the wide open mouth with my alphabet emoticon.
Anyway, all in all, i was really upset. i gained 2 kg.
I NEED TO LOSE IT>
OK, first, i got my extreme diet buddy -- annie wang.
ok, second, back on low-carb diet. VERY LITTLE CARB. meaning, must give up my peanut butter sandwiches.
third, exercising. will run up and down stairs for as long as possible. do weird arm exercises to reduce arm fat for upcoming formal.
fourth, basically eat as little as possible. will detox one day out of one week by not eating solids and only drinking fluids. Will restrict my calorie intake to about 750 or lower.
YES, I WILL STARVE. FOOD IS ENEMY.
I will do all this, trying to forget the starving kids in Africa.
STARVE STARVE STARVE.
must must must lose that weight.
and then my final goal: to lose 10kg.
And then finally, i'll finally be able to wear jeans from fob shop without bursting a button or two. i swear only insects can fit into them.

:) i have hope. i will try my best.

now, if i can only get as worked up about my interviews as i am about my weight, my mum would be the happiest person alive.

12490 @ 2007-11-09T03:10:00

2007-11-08T16:13:26Z

Today, I found out that Tohjoh Asami-sensei died. She was a great mangaka and it is such a pity as many of her works are yet unfinished.
She was a talented artist and the world just doesn't seem right without her.

RIP. Tohjoh Asami.

12490 @ 2007-11-05T20:04:00

2007-11-05T09:08:38Z

Today, i pissed off a very important friend of mine.
Ms. V, I am extremely sorry. You are not taking my calls and i dare not call your home phone.
I stayed up til 5, looking at Matthew Lush who is a very very cute gay guy, on youtube.
I set my mobile to call me up at 9 so that i will reach the city at 10:45, thereby avoiding the mistake i committed last time.
But to think, I actually overslept....
I am so sorry.
I know your mum is very strict and it's very rare that you can come to the city. I also know that your mum has been on your case about me -- about how i am a bad influence etc. etc.
I am very sorry. I cannot fully express how sorry I really am.
I really wanted today to be perfect. I even planned it out.
11-1pm, we could go 2hr karaoke.
Then 1-2, we will prob be hungry by then -- hence, korean hot pot.
2-3, shoe shopping, kinokuniya
3-4, stickerphotos.
I am sorry I ruined our day out.
Though your mum hates me now, I don't particularly care what she thinks of me. Just as long as...you will be able to forgive me someday.
I am sorry.

12490 @ 2007-11-05T01:35:00

2007-11-04T14:46:31Z

i blog once again some 40 minutes later. i am tired, but i don't want to go to sleep.
i found a cockroach in my room. bloody hell, they multiply fast, like rabbits. but rabbits are cute. cockroaches are plain disgusting.
but my dearest draco played with it and then proceeded to kill it.
i then used a wad of tissue to swipe it into the bin.
v. proud of my sadistic cockroach killing machine. though, i think i shall avoid kissing my dearest draco for the next 15 minutes.
he's very been very bad today. that bastard pooed in his litter box and then kicked his shit out. AND IT"S STILL FUCKING WET>
nvm, will clean up when dry. i feel so sorry for the cleaners. they also complained about it last week, so will strive to clean it myself this week.

as i have said before, i went to dye my hair. i think i'm gonna kill my hair soon. it's already pretty dead. everytime i go to the hairdressers, the first thing they say is: "my god, u have such damaged hair" in various tones and accents.
wat can i reply?
OMFG, YEAH UR SO RIGHT.
OMFG, LET ME BUY THAT HAIR MASK U"VE BEEN TRYING TO SELL ME FOR THE PAST 3 MONTHS.
OMFG, SHIT, DRY HAIR IS SO HOT.

i merely mumbled sheepishly: "yeah..." and then sheepishly bought their hair mask.
my plans for my dearest hair:
1. straighten (when less damaged, maybe 2 weeks later)
2. get hair clips (cos got interview, cannot get extensions, but want long hair for formal)
3. dye it lighter, more brown after interviews
4. get hair extensions

yes. i shall.
shopping list:
1. more over-knee length socks. our family does not do laundry often.
2. a formal dress. a very nice one.
3. shoes?
4. more tops

must limit my spending.

my dearest draco poopsie-pie. he has such squishable cheeks.
tomorrow, i will go with ron to go shopping. we will eat that korean hot pot place, where the waiter caught me taxing napkins from the empty tables but didn't catch monica (shit, that always happens to me, eg. me and veronica skip physics. i get caught. veronica doesn't), then stickies, then karaoke, then shopping for shoes. and one must not forget the almighty kinokuniya.
will set myself a realistic spending goal - 500. will stop after that, even if am stranded in some unknown country town -- will Not take taxi and will walk all the way back home.

goals for post-hsc:
1. lose weight (7kg)
2. work (tutoring)
3. do hair.
4. go to taiwan and get lots of clothes.

yes, i shall be gorgeous when i get back.

12490 @ 2007-11-05T00:50:00

2007-11-04T13:59:31Z

i have decided to post an entry. it is post-hsc.
i have officially finished high school....if you ignore the stupid textbook return thing which i have no idea what they're on about.
anyway, the past three days-- i have bummed at monica's.
i think he/she is already very sick of me, but he/she will have no choice.
right now, i am looking at people's blogs. relationship is very complicated, i have just found out.
i have also rejoined gaia as a gay guy, inspired by mr. he.
well, in truth, i really only joined cos i wanna do their jigsaw puzzles. v. v. fun.
i think my iq might have increased by 0.1 point. very proud of myself. i got 40-something gold for doing the puzzles. i am very smart.
argh. my head spins. i should go to sleep.
i will now henceforth complain about that bloody manicure shop i went today.
they kept on pulling those skins around the cuticle off. of course, that's necessary. BUT THERE"S NO NEED TO SHED ANY OF MY ROYAL BLUE BLOOD.
bloody hell, they suck. and as soon as they finished, i walked out and realised i accidentally chipped the paint. bloody hell, i am not made for maintaining manicures.
pissed.
and then the hairdresser. well, my hair turned out ok. though monica prefers me looking goth and emo so that he/she looks good in contrast when standing next to me, i prefer my brown-black hair. it is summer. one needs to lighten up.
anyway, about the hairdresser thing. i bleached it first. then this is wat happened -- i looked like i had a very bad mullet. because teh first part of my hair is completely black. the second 10cm part is bright orange blonde. then the proceeding rest of my hair is red-brown.
i looked in the mirror and went OMFG. nearly screamed at them: "I'M GONNA REPORT YOU TO THE ACCC"
anyway, thank god, they dyed it to a pretty nice colour. otherwise, i will actually have done something very embarrassing -- one that will be talked about in joke books in the next century.

12490 @ 2007-10-24T13:43:00

2007-10-24T03:44:35Z

wat happened today?
well i died for one.
a very very horrible death.
THAT"S CHEM?
CHEM?
CHEM?
WTF?
WTF?
WTF?

the exam has rendered me illiterate.
in short, i got screwed over by a few sheets of paper and i died.
a very painful
and horrible
death.

12490 @ 2007-09-08T00:37:00

2007-09-07T14:49:28Z

the last few weeks have been horrible. HSC is so near, yet so far away. it's close enough to scare me to death, but it's too far away for me to care about it. every day, i do something random and stupid like reading my old magazines and playing pranks on my cat and annoying my sister. buta t the same time, just wishing i can just bloody sit down and study.

also realised i must be pretty popular, since people have added me to their facebook thing. ok....maybe not....since being one of the "friends" out of 193893483948 people....not exactly anything special. nevertheless, still do not quite understand how facebook works so didn't go on after joining.

Also, the stupid msn on the otehr computer keeps on signing me in. so, since i'm so popular, people keep talking to me. the people really only being isabel and mandy giving me the obligatory "hey, fuckwit" but we will ignore that and pretend i really am a product in demand.

god, this anime i'm watching is fucking disturbing. the father gropes the daughter to check if she's fertile. Shigurui is an ANIME, not PORN. i have to note. it's about samurais and a fuck lot of blood. i swear, it's not some kind of sick incest. this guy just cut the other guy in the mouth. wow, lots of blood.

"Whoever makes the kill, gives the seed" wtf? how gross and patriarchal can this guy get?

and now they're talking about shaving chins...as in physically cutting the jaw and stuff. and they're talking about how it's rude. how fucked can these japs get?

i'm slightly disturbed. but i think i'm more disturbed by both veronica and mandy both offering their bodies to me on the same day.

god help me. i am surrounded by freaks.

12490 @ 2007-07-25T18:05:00

2007-07-25T08:14:29Z

i screwed umat so bad it was not even funny. unlike ron (who thinks getting 99,99 and 99) is the worst failure in the world, when i said bad, i meant bad as in FUCKING BAD.
i think i missed out a question and forgot to colour in the oval thing.
omg. i think i did.
fuck.
and i didn't have enough time to do all of section 1 so i skipped a few, put C and just moved on. i really don't give a shit about chloe/beatrix or whatever or what shirt/scarf they're wearing.
fuck them.
on the subject of clothes, i wore those exercise pants, track suits and got mercilessly killed by veronica and sisi. who both laughed and pointed. i do better in my nerd gear. you so won't be laughing when i get better than you in umat (not going to happen, though).
hopefully, gareth never saw my face properly. hopefully, no1 who knows me saw my face properly.
but one comfort is that gareth looked freakier in adidas headband, as described by ron.
after umat, i de-traumatised myself by wandering around the city. i went to kino, bought 1 yaoi, 1 shoujo and 1 magazine. proud of myself cos i didn't spend much.
but then i went shopping for clothes. and that is always a bad thing.
i think i spent about $500 today and started feeling guilty.
as had not done well in umat but still spent money. if i did well, then that's justified.
it's funny cos when i wander around in my pyjamas aka. nerd gear, the shop assistants were either very rude or gave me pitying glances. i think one of them gave me the "r u sure ur in the rite place?" look.
they probably thought i wandered in from target.

i have now committed myself to a life of studying commerce, getting yelled by a balding, unhot boss with no chance of promotion.

oh wonderful wonderful life.

12490 @ 2007-07-13T23:55:00

2007-07-13T14:10:20Z

watched harry potter on thursday. was better than expected albeit expectation was not high to begin with.
anyway a brief overview of the movie:

Harry: woe betide. i sit on my swing. i watch kids being taken home by their mothers. not because i'm a pedophile, but because i have a severe oedipus complex. lo behold, here's comes the squinty eyed obese whale.
Dudley: hah. no mummy action for you. *his fanboys laugh*
Harry: i will scare you with my small stick. *shoves his wang (sorry, wand) into Dudley's wobbly chin*
Dudley: hey, i lost weight. ur wang usually digs in further.
*harry looks at him in new light*
ok, joking. that wasn't wat happened. the last line i mean. the aforementioned was all true.
Harry: beware, Dudley, or i'll sparks will fly from my magic wang.
Dudley: tis getting dark. wat have you done?
Harry: *giggle* all the better! (ok, that's imaginary)
Anyway, sexy Dementors fly down.
Dementor 1: yeah! gang rape time. u take the fat one.
Dementor 2: oh damn!
Dudley and Harry run into tunnel. why oh why? Dripping wet i might add.
Dementors come over to rape. just as they engage in passionate encounters, harry spoils the moment by spilling out white stuff and pointing it everywhere. ok, he was doing the patronus shit, but when i make it sound like that..!!!

anyway, skip boring bits.
Harry peeved at Dumbledore.
Harry: LOOK AT ME!!
Dumbledore: *scared* um, um.
Snape comes in. Dumbledore looks relieved. they go in corner to have a private chat. harry locked out of love triange. he angsts.
Harry: oh hagrid, wherefore art thou!

Skip Skip.

Sirius: oh ho, i dun wear clothes underneath my cloak. look at my sexy tats.
Harry: oh dear, your darling face is burnt out of that family portrait room. oh damn, was hoping to try out my new left-hand techniques.
Sirius: never mind! just look at my sexy not-so-young curves. by the way, me was really rebellious when young. so ur father and i had liasons in his house. i think his parents enjoyed watching us.
Harry: OH!

Skip Skip. in the department of mystery or watever
Harry: *holds up the Prophecy* ZE HOLY DILDO~!
Lucius: *wearing bondage/emo gear and darth vadar outfit* give it to me boy. *inner thought* my, my, no wonder voldy wants it. it's round, it glows and it talks! but oh gah, trelawney's voice.
Harry: oh nvm that. oh look, that's the mad woman. there isn't supposed to be heterosexual crap in this movie, so look only at my young curves Lucius!
Lucius: i'll leave that to draco. *looks laciviously at the huge boobs popping ouf of Bellatrix's bondage gear*

several darth vadar wannabes pop out.
skip skip.

Harry: NOOOO
Sirius: alas i die. *bends 45 degrees and drifts off into the door like a plank*
Lupin: that was so unsexy.

one memorable scene was when harry and snape engage in some serious BDSM. Harry sits on chair and moans while snape leans in and out, going "you're not focusing enough. try HARDER!"
ok, they were doing the occlumency lesson. but oh well, artistic license.

and u may think this is a rip-off off ron's recount of king lear. indeed, i got the idea from her. but admittedly, mine's more amusing.
besides, draco malfoy aka tom felton looked sexy and delicious in black mafia suit. was very turned on.

12490 @ 2007-07-13T23:55:00

2007-07-13T13:55:21Z

pfffft
holiday sucked.
all day long, i attempted to study.
i've discovered myself to be a master of all time-wasting activities. eg. in one hour
i can 1. stare into space for 15 minute
2, kiss draco for 10 minutes
3. tell him how beautiful he is for 10 minutes
4. he bites my hand and chews it like shoelace for 5 minutes
5. i then proceed to read a novel i've already read a thousand times eg. devil wears prada, manhattan call girls
that takes another 20 minutes
6. then i go back to day dreaming about after HSC and worrying about how to bring draco overseas and wat to do and where to find him in the event of an aeroplane crash. that actually takes more than 10, but i'll put 10 for a complete hour.

i occasionally go downstairs to stock up on snacks. this holiday, i rediscovered soy milk and got over my obsession with harry potter.
veronica and poman really suck because ONLY NOW they make predictions. i made predictions ages ago. i am TEH cool.
1. snape is good. can't be bad. otherwise wat's the fucking point of making him so endearing
2. harry will die (oh please die before you have ANY sort of interaction with something red-haired and sluttish)
3. draco and harry will reconcile (no shit, JK rowling fucking said it)
4. dumbledore was a horcrux and that was why he told snape to kill him. pretty good prediction eh?
5. hopefully, against all hope, ron/hermione will also die
oh god please. i do so want to see someone trampling over rupert grint/emma watson's body.
6. hopefully, draco will get more screen time and some shirt-removing action.
oh oh, tom felton.

anyway, this holiday, i bought many DVDs then lost them as was my timeless tradition.
and draco grew skinnier.
i think he's going anorexic.
i gained 1 kilo which sucks shit.
and i realised UMAT is coming
IT"S COMING. i wish it was in that way. but no, it's coming in a very unsexy way.
oh am going to see HP today. suckers to sisi/ron/isabel etc.
i bet they're all cooped up at home studying, while i teh cool one will go watch whilst failing my trials and subsequently my hsc.
and i discovered how to shove fotos onto fone.
and i am already planning my trip back to taiwan/japan.
and i decided that prostitution is not a valid profession for me. there's that look factor other than being a female. in fact, i think i fail both.

anyway, must lose weight. think will either starve or go back on low carb or atkins.
i dunno. should just do both to accelerate fat burning.
my abdomen is not called an abdomen anymore.
i have a fucking beer gut.
lo behold, tis fat u witness.

12490 @ 2007-06-19T18:27:00

2007-06-19T08:29:23Z

man, i'm unpopular. no one reads my livejournal. even if they do, no1 comments.
not even a hi or something.
actually, don't give me that. give me something substantial. something interesting.
today, other than yamapi....
i
i
i think i'm going to turn fangirl over another pop star. today, this anonymous gave me a link...and i guess i've been following up.
i never knew.......
how did i not know?
how did i resist his appeal...?
my god, rain is so cute.

12490 @ 2007-06-14T15:42:00

2007-06-14T05:46:50Z

during my little stuvac, i have been suffering. not just from exam stress (OMFG I"M SO SCREWED sorta thing). it was more than that. when i was studying, i began to suffer from all my past actions. my psychology was damaged.
u know when u think of something embarrasing u did and u cringe repeatedly and think omg...why am i such a fuckwit? or omg, what did he/she think of that? or omg...i hope no one ever remembers THAT (but they do).
well, i began to suffer from those memories repeatedly. while attempting to memorise for Bio, i'm also simultaneously bashing my head against the table and smiling in embarrassment (fine..more like grimacing creepily).
so, that rendered my study sorta ineffective. and my psychology in absolute tatters.

life sux.
i wish i'm not so embarrassing.
why am i such a fuckwit.
i spelt embarrassing wrong...or did i?

i know what vanora's gonna post "about the comment of you being a fuckwit, i totally agree".

then sign off.

bitch.

12490 @ 2007-05-21T18:02:00

2007-05-21T08:05:09Z

Once again I post.
I feel fat and impotent.
But I know that I may be fat, but not impotent.
Hopefully anyway.
Or maybe not so hopefully.

Anyway, just want to let you know.
I really am fat and impotent.
Wait, I'm confusing myself.
Am I impotent after all?
Which meaning of impotency am I taking on here?

The mysteries of my mind never fail to excite me.

12490 @ 2007-05-21T15:02:00

2007-05-21T05:03:31Z

#1: In the Mercurian culture, I was actually considered as beautiful.
#2: There is no current civilisation on Mercury.
#1: *pause* Exactly.

I will not release any names. I swear one of them is not me.